Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Really fighting for my life

They are worth fighting for...I am worth fighting for...2 weeks ago I found out I am literally in a fight for my life...I have Endometrial cancer. 2 weeks ago, alot changed in my life...my perspective, my breathing, my focus--but not my Lord, he is never changing, ever constant.

I know He loves me, I KNOW he has a plan in this...a plan for my good and His glory. I know in his love there is no fear-his perfect love casts out all fear. I know the joy of the Lord is my strength...I will have joy within this season--not waiting til I am through it, but right here in it!

I will praise Him all of my days--yes even these! Am I concerned-yup, but not struck with terror, nope. Have I thought about dying, yup--but I am taking thoughts like that captive, because I know they are not godly, I know they will cause me to think things that are not true...God is faithful, every minute of everyday.

So, some facts---endometrial cancer starts in the lining of the uterus. Funny story: 6 years ago we moved to NY where I got to go to this amazing gynecologist. Because of a condition I have- she would regularly (every 6 months) give me a biopsy, it had become part of the "regular" routine. Over the last 2 years, due to mum's illness and passing, I hadn't gotten to my appointments--so when I went to see her in the beginning of August-the routine biopsy-I think may have saved my life. IF it had not been already in the routine--she wouldn't have done it, you see, the pap didn't show it, the in/out ultrasound didn't show it--ONLY the biopsy showed it! Right there, God is sooo faithful! 6 years ago, he set me up with my dr. I am a very blessed woman! It tells me so clearly that God has this all under control--He is aware of my difficulty, he is not leaving me! I know some may ask, why didn't he stop the cancer then? I don't know, what I do know is: He has a plan in this...for my good and His glory! He gives us opportunities to grow in Him, draw closer to Him and share His love with others--Praise God!

Is every minute of every day happy go lucky? Nope, but every minute of every day is an opportunity to choose to be...I hope more of my minutes I am choosing to be.

Other facts: Planning laproscopic surgery (radical hysterectomy with lymph node removal) hopefully by the end of October, 5-6 weeks of recovery is to be expected. If the cancer is contained completely within the uterus then I am home free--if it is outside whatsoever, then radiation and chemo may be necessary.

Well, guess that is it for now...sorry to lay this all on you. Don't be sad...I trust God knows what He is doing! I will ask though, please pray! Thank you!


Nancy said...

"Though YOU we push back our enemies; through Your name we trample our foes. I do not trust in my bow; my sword does not bring me victory; but You give us victory over our enemies, You put our adversaries to shame. In God we make our boast all day long, and we will praise Your name forver." (Psalm 44:5-8) May your strength continue to be in God, Vic. May He trample your foes and bring you sure and complete victory. We pray for you; we stand with you; we join you in using His name to push back your adversary. And we love you. ♥

Anonymous said...

Mom had always said that everything happens for a good reason. I truly feel that God does have a good reason for this happening in your life. I praise you for your courage but I know that this courage comes from God. May you and your family trust in Him. Know that He is in control at all times. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers daily. Bless all of you.

Aunt Linda

dance4eternity said...

You bring tears to my eyes, but you are so strong in your faith and you are literally high off of life. I love you so much and don't forget that us dancers have to live, love, and laugh every single day :)

Jim & Carol said...

Vic - We certainly will be praying!
God is good.....all the time and He is able!! Blessings to you, Shawn, & Sen.

Anonymous said...

Hello Vic,
Nan sent me your blog to read... very very encouraging to me right now. I am going thru a similar situation. I just had a biopsy done on the lining of my Uterus a week ago and I will not find anything out about it until next week. It gives me strenghth from your words to have no worries and understand that God is in control no matter what the outcome. Thank you so much for sharing your experience. God Bless you and your family, Love and Prayers

MICHELLE said...

Vic, thank you for the update and the reminder that although we are hard pressed on all sides, we will not be crushed! I wish you did not have to go through this but I have no doubt, your strength through this will encourage many and God will be exalted! We will be praying for you and the guys. Hugs to you my friend!

Anonymous said...

You are daily in my prayers, my sweet friend.You are an amazing women of God whom God is able to use in incredible ways...even when those ways are tough to walk through...I love you and know God has even greater things in store for you!! Love you so much!!!:)

Carol Dubin said...

Oh dear Vicky!!!! I love what you wrote.... You are SO right.... God has it all in control... There is no fear if we really trust that God is holding us. I am so thankful for the faith He has blessed you with... I am praying for you and your wonderful men.... That God gives you all peace ... Holding you tight through prayer!!! God is good ALL the time!!!! I love you!!!